Peace - At What Cost?

It's been 2 weeks of relative peace due to the intervention of relatives. Helpful Brother and Wife (brother and sister-in-law) were here for a few days to help out. To really no avail. A blown rental interview. A missed opportunity to fill out on-line forms for assistance (instead at the church next door to the restaurant HB was meeting him at and disappeared from), a missed opportunity to have a camp site for a week. One less week of trying to sleep in your car. HB asked him why living in his car wasn't boosting him to faster look for a place. WV said no biggie as it was only 4 days. HB said it's been 3 weeks. He wasn't believed!! Incredible. So HB gave in. But didn't give up. He can only do so much with what he has to work with.
I heard from him last night for the first time since before HB and Wife arrived. The text looked like a partial copy/paste from a text I received weeks ago. It didn't make any sense. When I questioned it, I was ignored. Oh well. I will try not to get caught up in the Whirling Vortex.
Back to my peace. I've had my heart rate slow down to normal. I've been sleeping very well. I just need to get back into an exercise routine. I've been a little lax due to all the high drama. As well, my Ferritin was 4!!!!! I'm surprised I had any energy at all. I've been attributing the lack there of to no sleep and stress. Stress!! The Mother of all that is Evil.
So that was my short WV rant for today. Now on to Me.
My daughter, son, and I have signed up to the gym. I have been one time only. Due to - see above - I want to go back and get trained on the equipment. I am so not a gym person. I am a walking enthusiast. A hiking enthusiast. But unfortunately my SI joint and my right hip do not want to cooperate. So I figured the gym was a good solution. My issues are poor body image as well as no spacial ability. Which translates into I don't know where my body parts are in the universe in relation to where I want them to be (or hope they should be). So when my daughter says just do it like this, I just can't. Then she says watch in the mirror that will help. It makes it twice as bad for me as I've never been able to do anything in the mirror. So I'm hoping with repetition that will get better. Phase one for self improvement. Lose a few pounds. Lets be serious!! We are talking at least 40!! Right now I'd be happy with 5. For a good start. my daughter is my inspiration. She is about a size 0-2. I have never been that size. I thought size 7 in my late 20's was amazing. I think the sizes have changed to accommodate the little Asian workers who make the world's clothes. Those gals are little little little.
I'm actually pretty good in the self esteem department. I am a strong independent woman - hear me roar! I would just like to be a better version of me. Be all I can be. Not for the army, though. I draw the line at military requirements.